So, about my roommate. [Language warning]

Here is that rant post about my roommate I referenced in my away post. Be advised, I'm so many levels of livid that I cannot guarantee clean language. If you don't like a lot of swear words, either don't read or censor them out in your head if you're really that curious as to what has me so ticked off.

I'd like to say first I'm usually a calm, go with the flow person. Takes a lot to make me angry, as you all have seen. The fact I am THIS angry should warn enough about what she did.

Anyways. To make a very long story short...My roommate has this ex-boyfriend, who used to be a friend of mine as well. He and I haven't really talked since I came out as gay, since I assume he got butt hurt about it. I don't know. I haven't had an actual conversation with the guy since Spring of 2012. Roomie and ex-bf have spurts of conversations, usually when it's convenient for him. Keep that fact in mind.

This guy has the tendency, since he moved during high school, to waltz into her life and fuck shit up at the most inopportune times. Typically he'll find her interesting again around the time she's dating someone and the relationship is fairly new. It happened to us when we dated, (yes Roomie is an ex-girlfriend), happened to her last 2 relationships. She started dating some guy 2 weeks ago, and guess who suddenly decides she's important again? Ex-bf.

Except this time, he comes flying in with some story about how I

[/b] was the reason they never started dating (again) last year. Accused me of telling him to back off, border lining threatening him, etc. Made me sound like I was being really aggressive - which is totally not me at all. And guess what? She actually believed him for a split second. She turned on me, accusing me of things I had never done. Never had I meddled in her relationship (or lack of) with him because I NEVER KNEW they were talking about dating again until he fucking broke her heart. He left her out of the blue, broke her heart, and told her he only wanted to have sex with her before he cut off contact yet again. I only found out because she confessed to me, in order to grieve.

Yet she believed his bullshit story about how I was the one to split him up. I have spent these last 24+ hours defending my ass from BOTH of them. Not only did he throw me under a bus, but he tried to drag my metaphorically mangled body from underneath said bus to look like a fucking hero to her. Then he tried to backtrack and claim I only "expressed my concern" and that the decision to dump her was all his own. So now she's accusing one of us of lying, and aimed it right at me with (and I quote): "Well, we also know that your memory wasn't the greatest, so..."

Yes, I have a shitty memory because of my concussion 2 years ago. But when it comes to serious shit like this? I fucking remember everything like a damn elephant. Don't you ever accuse me of lying about something as serious as this.

But she did. And now she doesn't "know who to believe" because his new story apparently sounds like something I'd actually do, yet I'm trying to defend my ass from both of them by vehemently denying all these accusations.

The kicker? Not once have I gotten an apology. Even when she's admitted that hey, maybe I'm right about some of these details in his story, I don't even get a "Oh sorry about that".

She's letting him get away with throwing me under a fucking bus. She's letting him make her doubt me, which is total shit because I have been nothing but honest with her.

And it's maddeningly frustrating, angering, and sickening because this is the woman who I have entrusted a lot of shit to. She knows all my demons, my baggage, my anxiety and eating disorders. She knows why I have them and where they came from. I trust her completely, yet she's questioning my loyalty and her trust in me over a bullshit story her ex pulled out of his ass to save his own sorry hide.

God I am so pissed. I feel so sick to my stomach...[/color][/blockquote]