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Post by ♛ Dova Soupi on Jul 17, 2013 15:32:04 GMT -5
This will finally stop bothering me if I can at least type it somewhere or get some sort of advice from someone shome how, or just get a "I feel ya girl", or something, really. It sucks that I would rather write this out than do anything else.
My boyfriend and I have had a rough week. We've both been in absolutely terrible moods, mine from a collection of problems with hormonal levels due to medications, and his just because Cody goes through terrible terrible mood swings that consume weeks at a time (we're roughly breaching week two and a half-ish). We've obviously made it through these things before, so we can do it again, no big deal, its just a little frustrating but whatever. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, correct?
Anyways, we were on our way to Cedar Point after a long winded talk that we sorted things out (apparently temporarily). We're driving along, we chit chatted here or there, but I could tell he was in an absolutely terrible mood and shoved everything I said aside because... well, as he puts it "he just gets frustrated with me so easily its hard sometimes". Suddenly, he confesses 30 minutes before we arrive at a couple friend's house that the only reason he gets so frustrated with me is due to the fact that I am the only one there.
[Back story: He had two really good friends. Chris and Nick. Chris gets a girlfriend (Alaina, which at one point Cody had a crush on, but hell she's a slut everyone had a crush on her at one point, and she's the type of girl to concoct such occurrences then dangle boys in front of her. I am NOT a fan. I personally think she's a fucking self centered whore.) Anyways. Chris is now dating Alaina. Whatever. Cody and them are still friends, its all good. We've hung out together as double dates. BUT. The most recent time Cody's car blew a line and we had to do a make shift fix there in a movie theater parking lot. They left us there, fixing his car, because they were so "tired of Cody always having a problem", that "something always goes wrong with Cody", and of COURSE, the cream on top: "They were hungry, so they were gunna go home". Well, we were actually on our way out to lunch.... So, obviously, they just ditched. It was so obvious it was like. WTF. Anyways, we ere both pissed. That's Chris.
Nick's wife is the biggest self centered, dumb ass bitch ever. Like... Poor life decisions everywhere. She just need to stop. Needs to go crawl in a hole, and die. Nick needs to leave this chick, and I'm being serious. Anyways. Cody was living with Nick and his wife while they worked on a house and planned on splitting the profit. Wifey Shelby was such a huge bitch Cody ended up just walking out on them, of course apologizing to Nick. They haven't spoken until recently, and have only just started hanging out again, here and there, and few and far between. Otherwise, all his other friends work or just have lost touch. So, what's left? All the chica friends who're like me, and stuck at home with their parents and go to school and such. They don't want to go do the things that Cody likes to do, becuase most are prissy or thye just. Don't. So there you go.]
Not just that, though. He informs me that since all he has is girl friends, that he doesn't see and only texts, of course he gets that I'm okay with him hanging out with them but that he can't because he, in basic terms, has crushes on them. Or, is developing pre-crushes. I'm like. ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS? I mean, yeah, we went through this with Alaina. I get it. He's never actually cheated, he just gets to the point where he can't keep his head on straight. So, on top of being just generally upset he brought it up in the first place, he says that, then follows it up with: "when we were friends things weren't like this. If stuff like this continues we should just be friends maybe." Now, that. THAT was a new thing. But of course, he instantly was like "I don't want that to happen blah blah blah". Whatever. You said it. It happened. It's going to bother the shit out of me.
So, of course, I've been so upset the last day or so, but I've been trying to keep it under wraps since we've been with friends. Well, I got very sick while at Cedar Point due to the intense heat, lack of food, and functioning on just 4.5 hours of sleep. Yeah. So, I got really fucking sick. And he got frustrated and pissed, and of course stayed off some rides to sit with me, but you could tell he was mad. Which, of course, I'm afraid it didn't help my case. Eventually the other girlfriend stayed back with me due to the fact she was getting tired, and we sent the boys off. Well, every ride they went to shut down and they couldn't ride them. So, they were super pissed.
Its just... He's so frustrated and pissed off and he told me the only reason he's mad at me is due to being the closest person, his best friend, his girlfriend, the only rock he has there, so obviously I'm the easiest target. He continually reassures me I'm doing nothing wrong, and he knows its his mood. Which, I guess, that's good. Kind of. Whatever. I just have to keep telling myself that "we've made it through these things before".
I feel so much better writing that. I had to inform someone. I'm so afraid of telling people, because Cody is just... I've literally loved no one else as much as him, and we've gone through some sick shit together, and we've always been there in the end, and despite all the troubles no one has come between us. I just wish so much I knew how to help him. I'm afraid if I'm not there then there then he'll be mad, but if I am there I'll just frustrate him trying to help. -sigh- I just don't know. It doesn't help this is on top of a million other stresses in my life. I do not want to lose him. I do not. I could not be his friend after this. I couldn't watch him go off with other people. I couldn't watch him be upset and not be able to go to his house and just try and help him in any way that I could. It just it scares me, and it really brings me down, and I'm struggling to stand back up until I know he too can stand up with me.
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Post by Laz on Jul 17, 2013 16:33:46 GMT -5
I'm so sorry Soupi. If you ever wanna rant you can always message me on AIM! Dx
I hope that whatever you guys are going through passes. I know after a comment like that I would have a hard time just letting it go. x___x I'll send some good vibes your way. <3
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Post by xyroca on Jul 17, 2013 20:14:53 GMT -5
Aw man, that's rough Soup! In a way, I can relate to how you feel. And, from experience, I'm gonna ask...Has Cody ever been tested for bipolar disorder? Because, he sounds kinda like my fiance personality wise. There's times when my fiance will just get an attitude out of nowhere, and before I ever met him he was diagnosed as bipolar. (There are different levels, so it's not always SUPER HAPPY! then I hate you! back to love you!) And it's also understandable that he lashes out at the person closest to him, you. That's normal with every relationship usually, despite how wrong it can be. I say that he definitely needs to get some guy friends, because if he doesn't trust himself to hang out with the girls because he'll develop crushes...Then he should definitely consider going out and trying to make new friends, or at least develop a hobby that lets him take his mind off things.
I hope everything works out between the two of you. I know when my fiance gets in those moods, I usually end up just getting quiet and walking away. Giving him about a half hour o so to himself usually is enough for him to come back and apologize for taking things out on me. It sucks cuz he probably doesn't realize how much it affects you. Hopefully his bad mood will subside soon, and he'll socialize with more people, lol. You can always rant to us <3
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Post by TimeLordNanc(: on Jul 17, 2013 20:21:03 GMT -5
Okay, time to confess: I dated an Aussie for about 6 months. And, like you and Cody, we were so close, even long-distance. He was my rock, and I told him everything. Literally. Test scores, secrets, troubles, happy things, all of it. And so we were on facebook chatting after Skyping one night, and then he says this: "Hey, I'm sorry, but you could do so much better. I'm an awful person, and I want you to find someone else. Sorry." and I was like, "teh fuck?" and I tried to get him to talk to me, but of course he didn't. Then he started dating another girl who was also my friend on facebook. You wanted an "I feel ya"? GUUUUURL I FEEL YA. :c. So anytime you need a shoulder to cry on, and ear to yell in to, or a pillow to bite, come at me, bro. You know where to find me! We can bitch about the troubles of guys together <3.
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Post by ♛ Dova Soupi on Jul 18, 2013 13:54:32 GMT -5
Laz: Thank you, doll. <3 Its appreciated!
xyroca: Yeah, Cody's (biological) father and younger brother are both diagnosed with Bipolar disorder, so he's positive himself that he's also bipolar - it sort of confirms it for me since you shared how your fiance is. That's exactly how Cody is. Its a little exhausting, but hell, I'll stay with him because I love him.
He plays his PS3 online, so I mean there are TONS of guys there, but I guess its not entirely "social" interaction since he's not doing physical stuff, which he loves to do (like adventures and swimming). He has a crotch rocket and a car that he fixes and tweaks with, and even those guy-friends left him, or just fell out of touch. So its not that he doesn't have hobbies. And he doesn't have time to find something else either, since the car-bike hobby also include necessary fixes to both. So. :/
TimeLordNanc(:: Ha. I'm glad someone gets it. It's just sad that some people have to go through it. Ah well. I've been dealing with enough bipolar people in my life I can handle a pissy, temperamental boyfriend.
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