Post by TimeLordNanc(: on Jun 8, 2013 1:03:06 GMT -5
Okay, I have this best friend, right? You've all seen me rant 'bout her before, and though I do get really mad at her we've never had a single fight in over 7 years. I mean, this chicka knows me. But sometimes I feel like she either doesn't want to know me, or has no time for me. Since we've been getting older, there's been a lot of stuff to happen, i.e. me going into highschool and her deciding to go back to public school. She's 2 years older than me but we've stuck together. And, instead of fighting, there will be these little time periods where we don't talk for a while, then instantly, BOOM. I'm at her house every weekend help them with their chores. Anyways, lately she's been getting more and more friends. Now, this doesn;t bother me, she can go sing around a campfire with them for all I care, but it does piss me off a little when it starts to affect our relationship. Now, before I get started, let me give you some background on both of us.
Her: She used to be the popular girl in school. She done ballet, dance, cheerleading, and she rides horses professionally. She's so freaking gorgeous and skinny and tan (she's part Indian) and perfect in almost every single way. She owns horses and is very social and fun-loving, and until recently would only be open to those that she really knows. But now, she'll instantly become "BFFs!" with anyone who will say hi. I mean, I'm glad she's becoming more social and gaining friends, but I draw the line when a 10 year old on Howrse posts on her little equestrian center page thingy and says that they're sisters and best friends. No, little girl. Over my dead body.
Me: I've never, ever been popular. I never done sports or any extracurricular activities and I'm lazy as fuck. I'm not skinny by any means, and I really hate socializing. I can be really mean, I do admit, and I'm also very funny (or so I've been told). I have hardly any real life best friends, besides her. Literally: she is my only best friend. No one really likes me, and who can blame them? The only reason they talk to me is because I hang out with her. Life has gotten extremely difficult for me, but it's gotten so much easier for her. I mean, the girl hardly eats, and she says "I don't know why" but I know it's because she's scared to get fat like me. I LIVE on food. We're so different that it just flat out sucks, but we've survived this far.
But I don't know if we're going to survive any longer.
At camp this past week, we met a girl named Sarah. She's older than both of us, and I don't even know how to describe her. But her and Michaela hit it off. I swear I saw sparks fly. Anywho, as the week progressed, they began pranking me. Now, I don't usually mind this, but keep in mind that in 7th grade, I was bullied almost to the point of suicide, and their pranks were almost dead-on with what those girls done to me when I was younger. They would kick my shoes under the bed, and, knowing that I'm not able to get them, would laugh and run off out of the cabin, leaving me scrambling for shoes to wear so I wouldn't be late for the Assembly. Multiple times they pulled spider pranks, and I have severe arachnophobia. That last night, they hid my blanket and pillow and it wasn't until after lights out that they gave them back. Also, she would actually leave me to go with Sarah. Like, if Sarah wanted to go back to the dorm, or wanted to be somewhere else, Michaela would just follow along and leave me behind. They would hardly ever tell me where they were going. I just followed like little lost puppy. But all of that was quite alright with me.... until we got to six flags. I'm an adrenaline junky, and I LOVE rollar coasters. I'll ride anything you point me to. But Sarah and Michaela won't. I begged and begged and begged her to ride the coasters with me, but nooooo.... she wanted to stay with Sarah. And after I would get off the ride, they'd be gone. Um... hello? Why would you just leave me in the middle of a theme park by myself? I was alone almost the entire time we were there. And then, after the day was over I had to pee, and I asked Michaela to come with me because no one else was going, and when Sarah flat out said, "No, we're going to the bus" she actually left me in the rain. Quite literally. It was raining and lightening and I almost got my phone ruined because my pocket was wet. And on the ride home, she didn't even speak to me. She kept flirting with this little boy, who later she said "was annoying" but she laughed at everything he did. I sat on the back and listened to music the entire way home, and you know what was the worst part? She asked me, "What's wrong?" and when I said "nothing" in the saddest voice I could muster, she never asked again. Just kept talking to Sarah and the little boy. That entire night I hardly spoke to her, but she didn't care. She had Sarah. I feel completely abandoned. Like, I don't know what to do with my life now because she was such a huge part of it for so long, and now she's drifting off into her little land of popularity, leaving me behind up the creek without a paddle.
Wow. That felt good to get off of my chest. But it still doesn't help my anger towards her.
Her: She used to be the popular girl in school. She done ballet, dance, cheerleading, and she rides horses professionally. She's so freaking gorgeous and skinny and tan (she's part Indian) and perfect in almost every single way. She owns horses and is very social and fun-loving, and until recently would only be open to those that she really knows. But now, she'll instantly become "BFFs!" with anyone who will say hi. I mean, I'm glad she's becoming more social and gaining friends, but I draw the line when a 10 year old on Howrse posts on her little equestrian center page thingy and says that they're sisters and best friends. No, little girl. Over my dead body.
Me: I've never, ever been popular. I never done sports or any extracurricular activities and I'm lazy as fuck. I'm not skinny by any means, and I really hate socializing. I can be really mean, I do admit, and I'm also very funny (or so I've been told). I have hardly any real life best friends, besides her. Literally: she is my only best friend. No one really likes me, and who can blame them? The only reason they talk to me is because I hang out with her. Life has gotten extremely difficult for me, but it's gotten so much easier for her. I mean, the girl hardly eats, and she says "I don't know why" but I know it's because she's scared to get fat like me. I LIVE on food. We're so different that it just flat out sucks, but we've survived this far.
But I don't know if we're going to survive any longer.
At camp this past week, we met a girl named Sarah. She's older than both of us, and I don't even know how to describe her. But her and Michaela hit it off. I swear I saw sparks fly. Anywho, as the week progressed, they began pranking me. Now, I don't usually mind this, but keep in mind that in 7th grade, I was bullied almost to the point of suicide, and their pranks were almost dead-on with what those girls done to me when I was younger. They would kick my shoes under the bed, and, knowing that I'm not able to get them, would laugh and run off out of the cabin, leaving me scrambling for shoes to wear so I wouldn't be late for the Assembly. Multiple times they pulled spider pranks, and I have severe arachnophobia. That last night, they hid my blanket and pillow and it wasn't until after lights out that they gave them back. Also, she would actually leave me to go with Sarah. Like, if Sarah wanted to go back to the dorm, or wanted to be somewhere else, Michaela would just follow along and leave me behind. They would hardly ever tell me where they were going. I just followed like little lost puppy. But all of that was quite alright with me.... until we got to six flags. I'm an adrenaline junky, and I LOVE rollar coasters. I'll ride anything you point me to. But Sarah and Michaela won't. I begged and begged and begged her to ride the coasters with me, but nooooo.... she wanted to stay with Sarah. And after I would get off the ride, they'd be gone. Um... hello? Why would you just leave me in the middle of a theme park by myself? I was alone almost the entire time we were there. And then, after the day was over I had to pee, and I asked Michaela to come with me because no one else was going, and when Sarah flat out said, "No, we're going to the bus" she actually left me in the rain. Quite literally. It was raining and lightening and I almost got my phone ruined because my pocket was wet. And on the ride home, she didn't even speak to me. She kept flirting with this little boy, who later she said "was annoying" but she laughed at everything he did. I sat on the back and listened to music the entire way home, and you know what was the worst part? She asked me, "What's wrong?" and when I said "nothing" in the saddest voice I could muster, she never asked again. Just kept talking to Sarah and the little boy. That entire night I hardly spoke to her, but she didn't care. She had Sarah. I feel completely abandoned. Like, I don't know what to do with my life now because she was such a huge part of it for so long, and now she's drifting off into her little land of popularity, leaving me behind up the creek without a paddle.
Wow. That felt good to get off of my chest. But it still doesn't help my anger towards her.
